THE NEXT ACT

There's nothing on my mind. Random Thought is in the slow mode today. Blank wall. Colorless surroundings. Sipping coffee is unnoticeable. Pen was lost. I don't dare to ask the one who borrowed it. I want everything to freeze. Any movement might cause to destroy me. Freeze. Silence. Quiet. Don't make any remark. Don't make any gesture. I am here to just chill. But chilling might get to be interpreted wrongly. Paranoid? Maybe. What do you think?

I need to catch my breath. I need to pause and just be still for a moment so that I would not be caught up with the whirlwind in the workplace. The best place for me to catch my breath is inside the chapel. And so I dropped by the chapel. Whew! So peaceful. So serene. It is easier here to unload and forget everything and focus on one thing. There is empowerment in silence. I earnestly believe that. Reenergizing is staying still. Silence is effective for me. I don’t know with others. I can have a lot of achievements when done in silence. It is easier to absorb the stuff I read or study in silence. I am more efficient in silence. Music helps once in while as long as the tune makes me peaceful. There are danceable tunes that get me on the groove at the same time provide joy and peace in me. What’s with silence? I guess because when I am not destructed by any noise, I tend to work inward or to work inside the core. I learned that the core is where God started me. So there muse be purity in

Wednesday is not always my day. I don’t look good wearing my office uniform on Wednesdays. I got to wake up early, go to office early, go home late unless I take the MRT since my car is color coded on Wednesdays. I pray to God that this day is my day. I am having my breakfast while doing this. A cup of rice. Boiled eggplant. Four pieces of okra, ginisang bagoong with calamansi. Perfect except for the drink I ordered. This breakfast has to come with hot chocolate, not Fitness Water. Anyway, I was still full after consuming them.

APO is in the rebound. They deserve it since they really made a difference in the OPM industry. They have been hibernating for a long time after several trials of making another score in the business. They even made an album which flopped I guess. Jimmy made an album of his own not really for any reason but for his own delight. I guess he was just establishing a legacy just like the books he has published. Buboy made several movies and TV appearances. Danny has his Pidro shirts. Now that the younger bands are redoing their music and made me listen again to their songs, I realized that APO made an impact in me personally as a young composer. I grabbed some of their styles. Come to think of it. My music did not make any noise in the commercial scene. But they are big in my own consumption. Nice APO! I am glad you are picking up again.

Where am I? The question is always filed in my senses signifying that I am not really contended with where I am right now. I am not really complaining or anything since I know and I believe that everything that is happening has its purpose for me. I believe that when I pray that God would take care of me, the answer is always for my own advantage. Hey, I am here. I question it. Though I may not want the present setup, I just have to make the most of it hoping that I end up with a better place. Unfair? Sometimes I think about it when I am observing that there are bad guys who can get away with their evil actions. Undeserving people get what they want. People with good intentions were ditched out by those people who have to be affected by the said intentions. Sigh. Survivors kick butts! They protect their greediness!!! Hahahaha. Wild life!

Let’s focus on one thing and one thing only. Why is it so hard to focus where in fact grabbing the simplest thing is an effective method of focusing? Take some time to smell some flowers. I may not be able to catch my breath in this hurried working environment. But what the heck am I being so engrossed with routinely work? It is not worth it when I know I have been losing something. I may not know what’s missing but deep inside there is. Hmmmm. Sigh. Focus! Where! Maybe I am too much into negative energy. Look at the brighter side. Smell flowers! Here I go again. Figure of speaking! It just means, take time to appreciate life as it enfolds right before my very eyes. Sometime it’s hard to appreciate life specially when you woke up on the wrong side of the bed, when you will find out that your office uniform is not yet ironed as you get to wear it for the day, when there is no creamer stocked in the shelf as you are preparing you morning coffee, when you get to leak when your yayaâ