THE NEXT ACT

How are you? How was your holiday? How was your weekend? How are you? Fine thank you. And you? Nice Weather. Indeed. Did you have a good weekend? Small Chat. Small chat. Blek! Sometimes i feel that way.  Can we just stop here with the small chat? I just want to get a mug a coffee from the coffee machine and i want to get back quickly to my working space.  I got lots of things to do. Sometimes i don't feel talking and it feels awkward to pretend i am interested with what he is saying and to pretend that I know that he is interested with I am saying. It takes few seconds or minutes to bump with someone and to start a small chat. Is it part of of the norm, culture? Or maybe a lot people get it why they are doing it. Maybe if i would know how I can use small chat to my benefit, it would not be so dreadful about the whole drill. And then I realize small chat is a worthwhile drill. Lol. Good first impression. Small chat can be a good ground to make a good...

Have you ever heard of Monito Monita? It is a traditional game in the Philippines particularly in December approaching Christmas where a group of individuals (friends, classmates, office-mates, etc) agree to give gifts anonymously with each other. Usually, it starts with writing down in a piece of paper each others name, roll it and put in a small box. Each takes turn to pick out a piece of rolled paper in the box. The name in the paper each has picked out is its monito/monita. The simple rule is that no one has to let each other know who the giver is until the revelation day ideally on Christmas day. In the game they will give their monitas/monitas gifts everyday with an agreed price range. There will be different theme in each day of giving such as giving, something soft, something sweet, something long and hard, something green or blue, something round, something you make /cook /bake, something pink, something useful, something wet, something made of wood/fabric, something you c...

Cacophony. What is irritating nowadays to me at least? What level of noise would I say that I would be prompt to cover my ears? We got used to too much noise and somehow we are in the loop of getting used to it. I am driving going to work, engine roaring, city traffic. I turned on my music player to listen to favorite song. I should say there are sounds I can hear but they are not irritating. I can live and they don't harm me. When in a club or a concert, I can hardly hear what people are saying when they talk to me. Does it bother me? No. I work my way in hearing it by bringing my ear closer to the speakers mouth.  There is another noise that has nothing to do with hearing and more to do in clutters in the mind and spirit. Too much thinking. Too much distractions. Noises such as worries, fears, habits, addictions. We work our way to get by in the midst of those noises. We work our brain to get used to those noises and that's how life goes on. We compromise. We t...

Obvious it may seem, many of us have regarded what have transpired over the previous year. We all had ups and downs. Some had more ups and some had more downs but I guess that will be subject to one's outlook. Opera in the Garden for me is the start of establishing my highlight of the year. Rehearsals kick started in January in preparation on the big event in March. Those were the days were I had pages of music sheets to study. I prefer that I home study in addition to what had been thought during rehearsals since it was potential that I might not catch all up. Most of the time I study before a music was thought. This Year, on the big day itself, the weather was mean that we were not given the chance to sing in the garden and so it was decided that we held them in ASB stadium. One good thing about it was that the acoustic was great. Adele concert. My wife won the Adele Concert tickets when More FM chose her submitted recorded voice singing an Adele song that I acc...

I believe anybody has something to show and be proud of. I am no exclusion in saying that I have some tricks under my sleeves worth checking. But sometimes I am not so keen on showing of. I am not alright when people misconstrue that my action is all bragging where in fact I am just happy showing what I can do. Some people find what I am capable of as a threat. And just by saying that sounds like I am full of myself. Anybody is a threat with anybody. But come to think of it I find that people who are threatened are not so quite secure in what they have. I know people who are on top of their game yet they are being demoralized by others who have something that they don't have. I'm okay with exhibiting my talent just to my pleasure. The same thing when I was doing something when I was a kid. When I was kid I did what I like doing. Sometimes, no one needed to know what I was capable of doing. I was just in my room, in my secluded place, in a small corner, sitting in a small plas...

There may be a more than one related messages from different consecutive encounters that is undeniably far from coincidence. The divine being is speaking strongly that pierces my heart. Different medium such the video that I watched, the chapter in a book that I have read, the cruelty of peers who are up to no good, the challenges at work, the situation at home are being intertwined in order to come up with a clearer understanding of the issues and solutions. What am I going to do about it? For a start, I need to reflect on them and see what messages can come up with. I know that there were small whispers that can give a big impact in my life once I deliver the message into action.  The ball in now in my court and I got to do something about. It is time for me to score some points to win. I was part of the Mamma Mia Musical show. One of the characters Sofie was trying to find who she really was by knowing who her dad was. Sky her fiance did not seem to agree that she would find ...

Another Month is soon to end the the most exciting month is ahead. That is what I look forward. Cruelty is still around the corner. I don't know how to correct it. But somehow it corrects on its own and another nuisance coming forward. It never ends. Though most of the time it's a waste time worrying about them. God is dealing with it. But it is very important that I Listen to the guidance of the Lord for there may have action to take. Prayer is powerful tool and It has been a number of times that it works in an amazing way. Holy Spirit, You are welcome here. Come flood this place and fill the atmosphere. I like that line in the song. May the Holy Spirit fill with love, comfort and joy. I need to be reflective in every reading that I read. That way, it will embed more to my mind and soul.  Most of what I have read is forgotten in a way. Or it is already in my heart. It is just that I can not express them explicitly most of the time. Deadline is up at work. There are...

There were times when I was pushed and pulled down on the ground by the cruelty of people who have twisted intentions. To fight back is hard sometimes. But there is the urge to do it. When and where? Only God can tell. My strength always tells me to back off. My anxiety tells me that the storm is too big for me to handle. The Lord is asleep during the storm as if He doesn't care. The battle is on and I am not in my complete gear. I need the Lord to complete me. The Lord is asleep not because he does not care. He is at peace during the storm because no one can move Him in low or high waters. I too should be at peace with Him. I too should not be weary during the storm. My strength may tell me otherwise but Lord is too big for any Tsunami that comes my way. Sometimes all I need to do is nothing but to let it ride and trust The Almighty. Sometimes I don't need to close my fist, to raise my voice, to complain, to rant nor to curse. All the time I need to be at peace. There is ...

In the middle of sleeping at night, the Android has robbed me from a complete and very much needed sleep. My body has a nature of waking up around 3 in the morning obliging to the automatic pee alarm. After complying with the call of nature instead of trying to go back to sleep, I used to grab the Android to check Facebook, Instagram or just to gaze at the bright screen. It has been taking a while until I realized that it's time to get up to go to work. What happened? This is not a good habit, I thought. And so I tried to psyche myself not to check on my phone after pee time in the wee hour of the morning. I should go right back to sleep, I told myself. So the next 3-am pee session, I went straight to bed and right away closed my eyes to induce the sleepiness. In a few minutes I opened my eyes and waaaaaa! The bright screen of cell phone was right in front of my face. My arm has a brain of its own taking commands to grab my cell phone and put it in my face. I know that there is s...

Self-Discipline is one of the greatest means to make people achieve the level of success they desire.  Self-Discipline is everything you know you should do and sometimes or most of the time these are the ones you don’t feel like doing.  It is like getting up in bed while you still want to sleep.  You get up right away when there is no choice because you are going to be late for work.  But it is harder to get up when you have all the time in the world to stay in bed apart from one hour allotted for exercise.  “Let just skip it”, the usual reaction.  I have so much respect with people who get the hang of doing fitness.  Sometimes I come across people jogging rigorously in the morning and I have the urge to look at them and say “Respect” while pounding my chest once. But discipline is not only for fitness, military or prison.  It has to be a way of life.  It is equivalent to sacrifice.  Sacrifice is depriving oneself from comfort to ga...

Why can't I commit to writing regularly.  It is always something that is getting in the way in order not to dwell in writing.  I know the benefits of writing.  One is that it is a way of exercising the brain.  Another is that it is a way to let out what my soul wants to convey in the open. There is always something getting in the way and I need to face the issue, try to get rid of the what is not necessary.  I am confused sometimes.  Why am I confused.  Maybe there are so many distractions.  The only way to start to reflect and come up with a decent writing to is to get away, to find a quiet spot and spend a quality time.  This does not happen all the time.  But I gotta do it.  I need some time in writing as much I need some time to physical exercise as well. There are so many things that I have deprived myself with in order to feed my body and soul. I find myself deteriorating and the only way to shine from the destructio...

There are things in life that I can't control no matter how much I propagate the truth that such things are not right. I may affect few people but there are massive number who possesses different ways of viewing things. Freedom of choice makes it difficult to promote my truth as opposed to others truth. It is cruel sometimes that the world is against my principles. I am not a holy man and sometimes my deeds contradict what I believe in. I guess sometimes to speak directly about what I believe in is not that effective. I got to live what I preach. My imperfection is what it pays to be in an imperfect world. My righteous claim is not convincing when the flesh emerge more evident than spirit does. But how can the unseen be seen? The faithful believes it is there But how can we manifest that the spirit is alive? How can our spirit rise above the flesh? The essence of being in the world is to be tested on the choices we make that may define our conviction or lack of conviction. The...

I  want  to discover God  in me. I would like  to  believe  that He exists within  me. He has never abandoned me. I am being loved by being me as a product of His love. I am being saved as a product of His unconditional  love. I am who I am because of who He  is to me and He is for me. God is love. God indeed is my savior. God is near. Very near indeed.

I cannot deny that sometimes I have been frequently falling from the lure of pride.  This is where I found myself all the more not in good situation of finding a solution to an obvious problem.  It is as simple as looking at the matter of how I can get away from the being trapped.  I stayed in the impression of not being affected and crashed.  In the midst of obvious bleeding I am projecting that I am invincible.  Portrayal of being all right is creating my own trapped.  Get out!  My good soul longs to escape. However sometimes pride is not the factor that pushing me to hide the weakness.  It is not pretentious. It is just hiding where my Achilles Heel is so from the demonic hearts that has the intention of putting me down.  I guess it’s just guarding my body and soul that were entrusted to me the one who creates me.  I accept my weakness and sometimes people work with it to my mishap. On the other hand, being showy about how hap...

I deactivated my Facebook account temporarily.  I am now free from its hold and I got more time to do things important to me that I have unheeded doing like blogging most of the time . Back in the days when Facebook hasn't been invented blogging was the forefront of my social media postings. This I realized at the start of writing this blog. I just woke up, grabbed my smart phone which has been always on the side table or just on the bed beside me or under my pillow. My phone serves also as an alarm clock among others like stealing my sleepy mode to end up being wide awake in the middle of the night. Looking at the apps in my phone, now that my Facebook is deactivated what is the fuss on checking the phone? I check twitter and Instagram which do not last long compared to Facebook. And then here I am......blogging.

The best thing about having a me time is that you can just be yourself and perform whatever you fancy doing. I am not so sure if this manifests good impression of me when I see myself doing not so much to indicate a beneficial perspective on what I would try to accomplish for myself. There are times I become disappointed for not doing what I ought to practice. I am supposed to be more responsible. I have no discipline at all. I've been lazy. I have wasted a lot of opportunities and I am sorry for myself. Sigh. New Years Resolutions are such cliches, but I realize the benefit of holding one or two even though there are not much development in setting one or two. I believe the power of abstaining more than keeping a resolution because it is a practice of doing it now or never and you want to carry on once you started dedicating it for the cause of conquering what you have conceived to be inevitable in certain times. I must admit that I sometimes believe, judging from physica...

It is definitely awkward when something has been given to you and in instance you need to give it back because of a mistake.  No fault at all comes from the rightful owner.  No fault at all from the judges.  The fault has been corrected courageously by someone who sticks to his principle, however stupid he is in the sight of the shallow.  Life just goes on.  Cruel intentions lurk your way to bash you if you are not conforming to what they want to believe.  Ruining lives is not the answer.  Lifting up souls may ease up the pain and help forget the awkwardness.  The video does not help and it preserves the pain.  They are online and stay forever for everyone to access, to like and dislike.  The more hits it gets, the more it dominates the mind of how stupid it is.  It takes a long while to recover unless media will be kind enough to turn it around.  There may be interview to state your point, but it's got to be good and well rehe...

What is right and what is wrong? A simple question but sometimes hard to answer in certain situations. We have been introduced to so many values in different perspectives and the bottom line is seemed out of reach. Where am I going? Is this really right for me? Sometimes material things is the basis for all of what is right for you. Technology for me is so attractive because it provides me with instant gratifications. Everything is quick. I refrain from walking because I have my car to get me anywhere quick. Texting will relay my information wherever and whenever I am and whatever I am doing in replacement of finding time to have some coffee with someone with quality conversation. What I am getting at is that the world has become advance and very attractive that perhaps it introduces a different set of values that conforms to the way of life in relation to advancement it creates in our day to day living. There are so many of the development that the world had introduced that we cannot ...

I accept the fact that I cannot stop people from contributing to the fall of mankind. I should stop ranting at people who do bad things to good people. These are people who have so many wicked ways under their sleeves whose mission is to annihilate the good guys specially those who are getting in their way in serving their self-centred ego. In my mind I thought they should not do that and it’s wrong. Now I have a clearer understanding that our minds wired differently. It seems that they don’t care if they are certified a-holes in the site of whoever has the right senses. I guess I was brought up differently valuing more on giving and find happiness in it rather receiving, focusing more on what I can do and how I can harness it and finding achievement in working on a task rather than claiming credits on what I did not work on. People on the opposite extreme of me may not understand my concept of happiness, focus and achievement and may find it odd for the reason that they a...

When I was a boy I grew fond in drawing. Everywhere I went I got a pencil and paper. I was drawing at home and in school during break time. And I became good at it. Almost every time that I was with my paper and pencil doodling in the classroom some of my classmates were peeping over my shoulder to see what progress I made. I liked drawing old school superheroes like Batman, Superman, Spiderman, Tarzan, Korak – son of Tarzan (I never heard of him in decades). This has led me to my obsession to superhero comics. I saved up to buy them. And because of my fondness in comics, I made my own comics with superhero characters I created. One school holiday, my cousin connived with me to rent my comics to our other cousins. He would do marketing and I would keep on drawing comics. I made it a point that every comics was open ended so they would look forward for the next one. It was in the two series of my comics when my aunt found out that we were trying to con our other cousins and she got upse...